My school makes a pretty big deal out of black history, because historically it was a "Black School", and I honestly don't have a problem with making a big deal out of it. Anyway, The theme of the month was "A mind is a terrilbe thing to waste" (they put a lot of effort into that one!), so during our assembly they had a young black man that attends our school give a speech on why you shouldn't waste your mind, let me summarize his speech.

1. White people like it when Black and Hispanic people waste their minds, because they are easier to control (Yep, we definitely want our president to waste his mind.)
2. "People of Color" are the "red headed step children of society" ( I started loling when he said this, who wouldn't!?)
3. A mind is a terrible thing to waste... but only if you aren't white (okay! okay! that ones paraphrasing, but that was the point of his whole speech)

Can I get a WTF?
                             ...WTF!

taking a stab a bliss
wondering what it would be like to be simply happy
without you, would be a requirement.
But I choose not to, this is what I choose.
to falter
to wonder
to agonize.
It's you who drives me to thoughts of if only.
you make me stutter when I never stuttered before,
you make me second guess when I never second guessed before,
you make me dream when i never dreamed before.
Sight of you makes me come to devastation, realizing that I am not funny enough, I am not brave enough, I am not sweet enough, I. am. not. good. enough.
& It's you who I think of in the loneliness of night, right before i drift into sleep.
but even in the depths of my dreams, I cannot escape the thought of you.